Anniversary weekend recap

This weekend was my (former) wedding anniversary. Friday Steph and I went to Raffi's on 5th in Naperville where I dropped a hundo on a decidedly average meal. It was not the worst time ever but not the best either- a bit awkward. Saturday I helped her move into her new apartment with the new guy, Chris. This was decidedly much more awkward. I did most of the work while these 2 guys sat back and smoked cigarettes. Then I had to watch her jumping up and down and being jubilant about the new apartment and this new start...while it didn't really seem like he was. But that's just my impression. My body is still pretty sore from it, but my head and heart are much more hurt. Why is it that it's been a year and a half since my divorce and yet I'm still crying every day about it. When will it end.